There is a running joke in my house. I claim Kenny Chesney continues to call begging me to come and see his latest and greatest shows. I often explain, to my husband, I gently let Kenny down. I am too busy to fly away and watch the performance. He will just have to try to go on singing without me in the front row. In reality, I have never seen Kenny Chesney in concert. I wanted to earlier this year. There was a concert not far from my house. I missed my opportunity, however, because I was too fearful to go out with just my children in a small area filled with thousands and thousands of people. Prosopagnosia rarely gets in my way of living life to the fullest. Yet, I am aware sometimes it does create an unsafe environment for me to chaperone my children. At times, due to face blindness, I do have to miss out on events I would love to attend. Even so, I am serenaded by Kenny five days a week. He joins me early every morning during my walks around our lakes. We stroll together. Dave Matthews comes along, too. No, not in person and not through the phone calls I fictitiously claim to receive. Rather, I am joined by them through a beautiful song that provides me with not only hope and relaxation but also inspiration.
Here are some lyrics from “I’m Alive”:
So damn easy to say that life’s so hard/ Everybody’s got their share of battle scars/ As for me, I’d like to thank my lucky stars that I’m alive and well
Why complain about what we have lost? You have a story. You have hardships. We all do. Never lose those scars; they tell your story. Never let the pain in receiving them define your life. Be grateful you are still around to tell this story.
It’d be easy to add up all the pain/ And all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames/ Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain/ But not me, I’m alive
There is a lot out of life that I wanted. There are so many things I hoped to achieve that will never again be available to me. I know if I had gotten half of what I used to work so hard to get I never would have the unrequested gifts I have in my life today. Hindsight truly is 20/20. Our dreams may be smoldering, but there are some great things just up ahead. It can take us awhile to understand this. For these unexpected gifts, I have learned to be grateful.
Stars are dancing on the water here tonight/ It’s good for the soul when there’s not a soul in sight/ This boat has caught its wind and brought me back to life/ Now I’m alive and well
Everyone needs someone. Even those that think they thrive from personal seclusion from the world. In reality, companionship is always good for our souls. Yet, try not to forget it’s just as good to have some time alone. There is unmeasured peace that can be found in moments of having no one around you. The difference between being lonely and discovering solitude is large and very significant.
And today you know that’s good enough for me/ Breathing in and out’s a blessing can’t you see/ Today’s the first day of the rest of my life/ Now I’m alive and well, yeah I’m alive and well
There are things I want. The results of my stroke have caused me to leave plenty behind. While I long for some of my missing pieces to return, I cannot help but celebrate the gifts I have today. Gifts such as walking alone on a two-mile stretch along the lakes. Walking independently and simply being able to enjoy my solitude. Finding hope in these independent steps and smiling as Dave Matthews and Kenny Chesney join me. Even if it is for only three minutes and eighteen seconds, I will smile at the hope, relaxation and inspiration they can provide. I will laugh quietly at the thought I can once more tease my husband Kenny Chesney was talking to me yet again today. Will that man get a clue? Hopefully some day we will have the opportunity to meet.
Regardless of your taste in music, I hope you will sit back, close your eyes and take away a lesson or two this song can teach us about life. I wish you well in finding strength to not only live each day peacefully but also live it fully: