Many people have often asked, “Why do I have to hurt like this? Why do I need to be in such pain?” This pain, being referred to, is sometimes a mental anguish. Other times pain being resisted is of a physical form. Either way, these are common questions. To feel no pain is a common, understandable wish. From my life lessons, I offer this warning: Be careful what you wish for!
At one time, I have certainly had the same sentiment; I have no doubt. This resistance to pain would commonly be a blessing for many. When I became mobile again, following my stroke, I had that very ability. On my left side, I could feel no pain. This actually became more of a curse than a blessing. I burnt myself one day in the kitchen. I thought I was feeling something very cold like my countertop, yet it was a hot skillet my finger was lying against. I can only tell if I am over exercising by the pull and strain I feel on the right-side of my body. I would not be aware if I pulled a muscle on the left leg or arm. Once, I had to have x-rays on my ankle. The doctor could tell I was limping more. I knew something did not seem right. Yet, even if it had broken after I fell off of a sidewalk, this would not have been obvious to me. Another experience led to me losing a toe nail. The doctor asked if I had kicked my toes against something hard or if I dropped an object on my foot. I was clueless as to what trauma occurred causing enough damage for the nail to discolor and then fall off from my large toe. I did not have the ability to feel any pain, even intense pain, that would cause such a significant problem to a single toe.
I know what it is like to hurt. I know what it is like to wish the pain felt could all just disappear. I also know sometimes feeling no pain is just as challenging as feeling pain so severe you believe you cannot take anymore suffering. Trust me as I tell my story: It is sometimes better to feel as if the hurt will cause your body to break than to have your body break and never know the damage and brokenness were ever occurring.